I'm to the point now that I just want to give up, i have no interest for school anymore and cadets bores me to tears.
Well this is where my rant begins.
I have had the worst year of my life in 2012. Whenever I tried to be happy it seems like something was always there to mess it up like the time I was finally able to get over biting my nails, then school decided to drop 4 huge associated assignments on me at once and there goes that.
I decided I was going to lose weight, then I was getting harassed out side if school so i stayed in all day and looked to food to comfort me. I tried to exercise but I live in a shoe box apartment and ijust cant do it. So I am now 140 pounds.
It's also due to the fact that I have something wrong in my brain doesn't connect with my stomach so I never know when I'm full, so I will eat more than nessasary and then power puke because I'm over full.
Also I'm still scared from when I was a kid. Only a few people know about this, but when I was little the guy that my mom was dating use to drink alot, he and my mom were constantly fighting. One day our barn had caught fire and my room was 5 feet away from it.
While my mom struggled to get me out of my room and to the neighbors where I would be safe all he did was yell at mom while he drank a beer and watched tv.
I don't have alot of memories of him but from what I do he was not a nice person.
For the most part I grew up without a dad. He was never really in the picture to begin with, he left my mom before I was born, and was in and out of my life till I was about 6 then he just stopped comming to visit. I didn't even know he was still around until 2009 when I was approached by my nana maclean (my father's mum ) who eventually introduced me to my dad, my two half brothers, and my step bitches Angela.
I now go to school with my younger brother by 2 years anthony, and we see eachother every day. Even tho I don't talk to my other brother john or my dad or step bitch anymore. All they did was bring confusion and misery to my mom when shenfound out inwas seeing him.
Well that's only part 1 of my little rant. It's not that bad but there's alot inbetween the lines that you can fill in yourself because I can't put it online.
Listening to: music
Reading: My computer screen
Playing: on deviant-art